Today is the 35th anniversary of Roe v. Wade and was also Blogging for Choice Day. I spent all of my allotted writing time and more working on a post for my more politically oriented joint blog with Jay, which you can check out, should you have the courage to dive into such turbulent waters. (Actually, it may not be what you think. I wasn't really able to dive in myself.)I can't fully articulate why, but this day filled me with sadness. I was listening to Talk of the Nation on NPR today, and they were doing a piece on abortion and how closeted and secret it is. One of the guests pointed out that there is no open grieving for abortion. One is only supposed to feel shame or guilt, and one is supposed to deserve whatever one gets.
I don't feel shame or guilt over my own choice to terminate a pregnancy. I know I did the right thing for myself and my family. I know I didn't violate my own ethical or moral beliefs. But I do still feel loss and grief, and I grieve, for the most part, in silence. I wish my decision were simply personal. I wish I could share it honestly without fear of judgment or of politicization from either side. But I guess that's asking a lot of the human race, since I'm not always capable of those things myself.
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